An Early Halloween

A few nights ago, I went with some friends to an old Victorian mansion for a night of dramatic readings of Victorian ghost tales. The actors read many poems and short stories, such as this spooky story by Edith Wharton, and the ever-popular Tell-Tale Heart by Edgar Allan Poe. Perhaps the lights being out and someone reading them makes them a little scarier, but it was fun nonetheless! We love our scary stories.

So, to add to the fun, here is my favorite creepy story by Charlotte Perkins Gillman, written in 1892. If you are looking for something other than the modern gore and ghost tales you get at Halloween, try this one! It's good old-fashioned subtlety and gives you goosebumps without resorting to homicidal maniacs and machetes (although I can get a good laugh out of those, as well).

Happy Halloween!

Re-do

**Disclaimer** I am writing this, not knowing if anyone actually reads all this, but I do owe an apology. This site has not really lived up to what it should be, because I have not been. A lot has happened since it began, not an excuse, I know, yet I find it more difficult to write lately.

That being said, you will see some slight changes in posts. I still hope to have friends post now and again, but seeing as this was my project from the start, most will be based upon my experience. I also don't want to box myself in, so I'm hoping this blog can evolve as I go along, by God's will.

So here we go!

I recently read the book To End All Wars. My parents recommended it to me and gave me their copy to read. To preface this, I was somewhat reluctant, as my parents and I tend to have differing views when it comes to topics such as wars, politics, etc., and my mom told me it would "change the way I think." Whenever someone tells me how I will be affected, I tend to become determined to have a different reaction, just to prove that I can. Stubborn, I know.

At any rate, this book is excellent, and I highly recommend it. As I read books, I keep a notebook or a computer nearby and write down different quotes and thoughts that come to mind. The following is a short paragraph that the author wrote near the end of the book. For a short background, the book was written by Ernest Gordon, who was a Scottish soldier captured by the Japanese in World War II. The book was also one of the sources for the movie "Bridge Over the River Kwai."

We did not know the full answer to the mystery of suffering, but we could see that so much of it was caused by "man's inhumanity to man", by selfishness, by greed, and by all the forces of death that we readily support in the normal course of life. The cry of the innocent child, the agony I had seen in the eyes of a Chinese mother as she carried her dead baby, the suffering caused by earthquakes, fires or floods, we could not explain. But we could see that God was not indifferent to such pain.

I was sitting at work today, looking over some of these past quotes I had marked, and came across this one, and felt compelled to post it. I remember reading this and thinking that Gordon got to the truth of the matter. While I in no way have gone through any pain or suffering remotely near what those soldiers did, I still am one who wonders about the suffering I see in this world. So many of us get hung up on it all--wondering how God could let it happen, how can we theologically explain it, how do we answer for it to unbelievers, etc.--but we miss out on the point--God is not indifferent to the pain, whatever its cause. I cannot stress how important this is!

I guess I am at a point in my life where I can see more pain around me than joy or blessings--but I must remember that God recognizes this and has equipped me to be able to cope. I am reminded of a quote by C. S. Lewis:

Pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our consciences, but shouts in our pains. It is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world.

I'm sure many of you can testify to this. I pray we do not drown out his shouts!


With hope, and peace

J

Side Note

For you, my elder brother, on your birthday:

Strong Son of God, immortal Love,
Whom we, that have not seen thy face,
By faith, and faith alone, embrace,
Believing where we cannot prove;

Thine are these orbs of light and shade;
Thou madest Life in man an brute;
Thou madest Death; and lo, thy foot
Is on the skull which thou hast made.

Thou wilt not leave us in the dust:
Thou madest man, he knows not why,
He thinks he was not made to die;
And thou has made him: thou art just

Thou seemest human and divine,
The highest, holiest manhood, thou
Our wills are ours, we know not how;
Our wills are ours, to make them thine.

Our little systems have their day;
They have their day and cease to be;
They are but broken lights of thee,
And thou, O Lord, art more than they.

We have but faith: we cannot know,
For knowledge is of things we see;
And yet we trust it comes from thee,
A beam in darkness: let it grow.

Let knowledge grow from more to more,
But more of reverence in us dwell;
That mind and soul, according well,
May make one music as before,

But vaster. We are fools and slight;
We mock thee when we do not fear:
But help thy foolish ones to bear;
Help thy vain worlds to bear they light.

Forgive what seem'd my sin in me,
What seem'd my worth since I began;
For merit lives from man to man,
And not from man, O Lord, to thee.

Forgive my grief for one removed,
They creature, whom I found so fair.
I trust he lives in thee, and there
I find him worthier to be loved.

Forgive these wild and wandering cries,
Confusions of a wasted youth;
Forgive them where they fail in truth,
And in thy wisdom make me wise.

--Alfred Lord Tennyson


I love and miss you.


With hope,

J

The Cost of Cynicism

This post comes out of my own conviction today.

There are a lot of followers of Jesus today who have fallen into a trend of being Christian cynics. Those who do this, myself included, find something to criticize about every single Christian we come across. We constantly pick out what is wrong with believers around the world.

I believe that this is happening not because we are hateful, but because we are taking too far the desire to self-evaluate, as well as to encourage our brothers and sisters in Christ to reassess their motives, values, and intentions in their walk with God. The problem, however, lies in the fact that there is no perfect human. The more we focus on the negative in others, and in ourselves, the more disappointed and cynical we become. Then the arguing begins. Friends and family turn on each other, and label it "tough love."

There is a time when tough love has its place--I believe that if we are walking with God, we will know when he desires us to rebuke a fellow believer out of love. However, I do not believe that God is glorified or happy when we walk around in a constant state of pessimism and skepticism about other believers, let alone those are not yet saved. God calls us to a hope, found in him through Christ, and whenever we fail to hope in him, and fail to hope that he is working in others, just as we know he is working in us, we are creating more harm then good. The point is, we cannot possibly know how God is working in the hearts of others-and we have no place assuming that he is not. God is a God of all possibilities, and to act in a constant state of cynicism, I believe, is not what he desires for us.

In Paul's letter to Titus, he gives us good practical instructions for living every day:

Remind them to be submissive to rulers and authorities, to be obedient, to be ready for every good work, to speak evil of no one, to avoid quarreling, to be gentle, and to show perfect courtesy toward all people. For we ourselves were once foolish, disobedient, led astray, slaves to various passions and pleasures, passing our days in malice and envy, hated by others and hating one another. But when the goodness and loving kindness of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of works done by us in righteousness, but according to his own mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewal of the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us richly through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that being justified by his grace we might become heirs according to the hope of the eternal life. The saying is trustworthy, and I want you to insist on these things, so that those who have believed in God may be careful to devote themselves to good works. These things are excellent and profitable for people. But avoid foolish controversies, genealogies, dissensions, and quarrels about the law, for they are unprofitable and worthless. As for a person who stirs up division, after warning him once and then twice, have nothing more to do with him, knowing that such a person is warped and sinful; he is self-condemned.

(3:1-11)


Why is it that we seem to be able to have more grace toward those who do not follow God, and forget to have grace against our fellow believers? Perhaps they know better, yes, but knowledge does not mean a person is less deserving of God's grace. I pray that we can continue to guard our tongues, and our minds from pessimism--because such thoughts will be acted out in our actions.

And what, then, is the cost?